@10:23 pm
A little update..
Weds./
After work went to watch I not stupid two wif valerie and jasmine..it was my first time watchin a local production I think..n u noe wad..i cried like hell while they didnt really cry..=/..i cried the most durin the scene where the boy was beaten by his father for stealin money..but the reason for stealin the money was cos he wanted to get money in the shortest time to buy an hr of his dad's time so tt his dad n mum cld watch his performance..omg so sad..n I thought the show brought back memories of my sec sch days..a time when I was rebellious and my r/s wif my parents was the worst..
Thurs./
After work, cara came to meet me and tog we headed for ys's hse for steamy boat! Woohoo! The food was quite good and surprisingly I ate the most la..haha gosh i'm growin fat n greedy..ys's dog is so small..wish my dog is also tt small in size..had a good time wif my dearies..thanks for the nite ya =)..n ya ys's mum gave us angbao which I had to use to pay for my transport..am super broke these days..havent gotten my pay yet I gotta pay for a lot of things..poor me..=(..
Today./
It was farewell time..it was valerie and keryn's last day at work..i'm gona miss valerie my psychotic number 3 =p..she was very patient wif me n we talked losta rubbish n nonsense..had fun durin work wif her arnd..but now tt she's gone..i haf 1 less lunch partner, 1 less laughin partner, 1 less pantry partner..i'll b the only one in office who noes how to function the whole thing..wad a great responsibility..sigh..wish me all the best man..but at least now made a few more frens..n kinda open up more to the pple arnd me..so I guess it isnt tt bad la..
N I came home the earliest for this week but only to find out tt my parents kinda had a fight..so my mood kinda sank a little..hmmm sumtimes I wonder if love still exists b/w them after all these years tog..lookin at my parents..seein wad time n age do to them..my heart aches for them sumtimes..lookin at my parents..the thought of getting married and havin to spend the rest of my life wif the one person and facin the one person everyday of my life frightens me..it's like wad if one day I realize tt i'm bored by the person..i cant walk out on the r/s..cos of various factors like kids..den in the end I hafta stay in the marriage unhappily..yes there's the love factor..but dun u agree tt love do fade?..
wad happens when love fades?..hmmm think I'm kinda pessimistic these days..mayb it's cos my thing may b comin soon..tt's y i'm feelin negative abt stuff..
N ya..valerie told me a few days back tt she felt tt I look sad when I dun talk and at times when I smile..she cant feel genuine happiness radiatin from my smile..can sumone tell me if this is true? But I do realize tt i'm not as happy as b4..i thought I wld b happier but… guess life is full of twists and turns ya..k think i'll sleep ready..damn drained..good nite world..n i realise wad a long entry i typed..
